The call of my own world part 2: struggling to hear it

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About two months ago I posted about the beginnings of my novel writing attempt, and all went well, at first. The initial enthusiasm encouraged me to make the time necessary to write as often as I could, and ignore the temptations of reading or watching a film.  Within that first month I made good progress, writing about 5,500 words, which I was happy with as I often only found about half an hour in a day to write.  I strove to ignore my inner critic nagging me about my lack of talent, and just kept writing.  Then things went somewhat awry.

Primarily this was due to work, but also I started to lapse into distraction mode, and suddenly found I had so much more to do and couldn’t find the time to sit and write, not even for thirty minutes. The inner critic seized on this and reminded me that what I was writing was generally drivel and I really ought to stop.  I hadn’t a clue where I was going with the story; just a vague notion of where I wanted to get to, and I wasn’t at all sure if I was going about it the right way.

As a result, and sadly somewhat predictably, I haven’t worked on my novel for a month. I had thought I would try to do so this evening, but having sat at my laptop, I decided to write this instead.  I suppose a part of me is hoping it might stir some inspiration in me, but I’m not sure.  At the back of my mind is also the potential prospect of studying for a Master’s degree over the next two years, which will also probably put an end to my creative efforts for a while.  It would seem my mind has already decided I won’t have time if I’m studying, so might as well stop now.

It is frustrating because I can see what I want to write but can’t seem to express it the way I would like to. I may have given myself too big a task; I often do.  However, I do hope I can find my way back in again to that enthusiastic state at the start, and in doing so, I hope I can hear the call of my own world again.

Fellow writers, if you have any advice for getting back on track, I’d appreciate it.  Thank you.

 

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4 thoughts on “The call of my own world part 2: struggling to hear it

  1. “Fellow writers, if you have any advice for getting back on track, I’d appreciate it.”

    Thought 1: Buy and read Chris Fox’s 5000 WPH. It’s both inspirational and practical. Just tracking my sprints really helped make me much more productive. It’s not that hard to get to 2500 words per hour. At 30 minutes a day, there’s no reason you can’t be writing a 1000 words.

    Thought 2: I just went through an almost 6 month bout of writer’s block. In the end, the solution was to rediscover my enthusiasm for the project. I paid an editor on fiverr to take a look at my MS. Her comments got my juices flowing again. I don’t know if that would work for you, but the point is to focus on what excited you about writing this novel in the first place.

    Thought 3: I hate to ask this, but if you feel that you’re just writing drivel, are you just writing drivel? If so, one of two remedies. Remedy 1 – if you don’t know craft well enough, maybe focus on learning craft more than on trying to finish a novel. Remedy 2 – if you know your craft well enough, give yourself permission to suck. That’s what first drafts are for. And second drafts. And third … Yeah, every draft by the final.

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    • Thank you onereasonableperson for your thoughts. They are helpful and yes, maybe I should give myself permission to write without worrying about whether it’s any good or not. A look at my original plan might help to bring back my initial enthusiasm too. Thanks again!

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  2. Your blog name is “Inspired Cup” I would encourage you to continue to write every day even if you only have half an hour. I read in your post that you would like to continue so I believe that the blocking stones in your way will disappear if you just continue stubbornly and inspiration and joy will come to you again because you came over it. Good luck from me!

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